nothing to prove

funny thing about home ... the "extra introvert" seems to be not so introverted after all. my parents had a meeting and i just had a couple hours to chill ... by myself ... what do i do? i don't really remember this being such a problem in the past, but lately it has been. i'm seeing how i don't make decisions on my own ... but i'm learning a lot about just living and being who i really am. i remember going to a retreat once when the speaker repeated over and over again ... "the biggest freedom is knowing you have nothing to prove." perhaps i'm on a slow journey of finding that freedom ... and learning i can just be me. God created me to be Amanda Lynn Chipman for a reason and He uses all things ... every detail ... in my life to shape and mold me and transform me to be more like His son. i have nothing to prove.

another interesting thought of the day ... i was watering some plants with a milk jug and it hit me that if i wanted to i could drink this ... and really the 4-5 gallons i used would quench my thirst for a long time ... but some people can't. people in china and myanmar and tons of other countries can't. i just dumped it out on some plants to make the yard look pretty or something ... but they need it for survival. funny how things that seem so old hat can all at once hit me in a new way.