is knowing God enough?

so here i am at camp ... and it's high school week so there's this speaker named Zane. he's talked a lot about when we have Jesus we don't just have eternal life after death (even though that is quite cool indeed), but we also have life abundant here on earth. this is a topic i've been thinking about for a long time ... but what does life abundant really mean? what am i waiting around for? or searching for? i've thought of it a lot in piper's words ... God is most glorified when we are most satisfied in Him. but how do we become more and more satisfied in Him? ... and Him alone? a girl in my small group asked us how do we get to a place where we are always trusting in God and never get distant from Him? interesting question ... i think it's easy to fall into that thinking that someday we will wake up and bam! we have arrived at this glorious place where we are so close to God we will never be distant or doubt Him again. sometimes i still think that ... or desire that to be true. but i'm not sure that's how it works. will life as a believer ever be easy? or will it even be natural to love and serve God and be full of joy that we just know Him? where i am right here and right now it seems that it will always be a battle where dependence on Him and getting showered with mercy are necessary. the gospel will always be just as relevant today as it was the day i first believed. so if it doesn't get easier or "better" the question that all too frequently races around my head is ... what's so abundant about this following Jesus thing anyway? what's so great that makes it worth it? and one line that Zane used a ton last night was "is knowing God enough?" because what makes this following Jesus thing abundant? what makes living with Jesus life to the full? the answer Zane argued: knowing God. and maybe why i am wrestling with this so much is because knowing God isn't enough. i walk around trying so desperately to find joy in other things (i hate how sin is so full of pleasure). how ugly is not believing Jesus is enough? and the bummer of it all is i'm not the only one ... check out the OT.

am i depending on my own strength and knowledge ... or is knowing God enough to praise Him and love Him and stand in awe of Him and loose my life for Him and depend on His strength and infinite wisdom?
do i wait until the circumstance i'm in suits my expectations ... or is knowing God enough to trust He has all things under control and does all things for a reason?
do i have to wait until He gives me emotions like joy or love ... or is knowing God enough?
do i need to see Him work through me ... or is knowing Him enough?
do i wait for praise of people ... or is knowing Him enough?
do i have to be healthy ... or is knowing Him enough?
does He have to reveal Himself to me in a certain way .. or is He enough in Himself?

is my desire for joy and happiness and ease deeper than my desire to know Him?

to think that God would be worthy of my life and all praise even if He didn't DO anything ... even if there was no Jesus and no cross ... He would be worthy just because of who He is.

i pray that the truth that God is enough would become so clear that i couldn't deny it ... and that my life would change because i deeply believe that Jesus is way more than enough.