faith

been thinking about faith lately ... and how small mine really is. i listened to this sermon the other day which described faith as banking on the promises of God. ... like really trusting in them to the point that my actions and decisions declare them to be true. as i stumble around in what seems like transition after transition, sometimes i feel like this isn't how it was supposed to ... or why does He give and then take away ... or am i really in the right place ... or what's the future hold for me. seems so silly because if i trust He is who He is there wouldn't be anxiety or bitterness or fear or anger.

He loves me
He is good
He works all things for the good of those who love Him
He started sanctifying me and He won't stop-and how great is it that He transforms every part ... even the very depths of my heart and emotions
He is in control and can see the whole picture instead of the tiny part i can see
i dont have to have it all figured out ... and it will still be ok
He has the desire and the power to make things work out for His glory ... even if it's not the way i think He is most glorified
He provides all i need ... even relationally
and the list goes on .........

oh that He would increase my faith