so i got home and there was a boston terrier there. no big deal ... my landlady has been talking about getting a dog since before i moved in... just so happened it actually happened when i was in ames. now, you would think since i have an animal science degree and all i would have been the most excited person ever to have a dog live with me and yet not pay for it or have a million responsibilities with it. well, my heart is full of sin ... even when it comes to cute dogs. he is cute and doesn't have a name yet, but then there's the drool and peeing on the carpet and shedding and dog food and dog smell and some pesky thing always wanting attention when i just want to be by myself and all... my initial reaction really made me think. is this the way i look at all relationships? or even my relationship with God? like oh it's dirty and messy and inconvenient ... instead of this is something to love and care for and enjoy spending time with and get emotionally attached to and take long walks with and stuff. what is wrong deep down in my heart when i see a dog as an annoyance instead of companion ... not as if everyone has to love dogs, but i used to. and now i have to be in the "right mood" to love dogs.
so we'll see how this goes ... i pray that God would use this as a teaching experience ... and that i would be teachable and excited for the journey God has me on.
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