what's the real problem?

In church we’ve been talking about objections to Christianity. The first week we talked about oppression and injustice and how some people think Christianity has been a vehicle to oppression and injustice. The thing is Christianity has (slavery, crusades, etc) but the problem isn’t with Christianity … the problem is with humanity. This becomes clearer when we look at other worldviews. The second week we looked at how many people think we can’t take the bible literally. Here again the problem is with humanity … not the bible. Some people are relying on their own authority … others get their info from a source that’s bigger than themselves….God. So then we come to my life …
I’m not super excited about my job right now. I sure wasn’t excited about Omaha at first … even though it’s getting better there are still many days I’d like to either shut the door to my room and cry or get in my car and drive home. How I long for comfort and ease … and knowing what I should do and how I should spend my days. But the problem isn’t with Omaha or the people here … the problem isn’t even with my job…. The problem is my heart. Bjo kindly reminded me about heart idols of control and comfort and approval … and something else I don’t remember but probably have that one too. A small part of me was excited that God was pushing some of this to the surface … but the rest of me still doesn’t like my job … and still doesn’t like not fitting in … and still doesn’t like not having everything all figured out. And the thing is I am not guaranteed to ever like my job (I keep slapping the word yet on the end of all my sentences, but who knows right?) or Omaha … I’m not guaranteed to have a life that’s easy or comfortable or have everything under control. I’m still called to work hard … for His glory. I’m still called to fight to believe truth and hold tight to trusting in Him. Oh how ugly my heart is and how a transition makes the ugliness so much clearer. Now here I am once again … begging for mercy from the only One who can save me from my sins … Jesus